Episode 105: Lets make this a re-run

5, 4, 3, 2, 1.... *twilight zone music* playing... let's go back in time... when XANGA was the shit.

http://www.xanga.com/PnysOsKanDaLuss

I read some old blogs and HAH, talk about sad. pathetic. embarrassing. the username alone makes me shake my head. totally gay. haha but i have to say, that shit really did help me get me through some tough stuff. but obviously, some of that stuff.. was unnecessary drama in my life that i was too dumb to fix or do something about. but ya know what? i have no regrets. i still don't have any regrets. regardless of the pain that i put on myself and others. it's all learning experiences.

june 19, 2007:
"btw, skyler, my fish died. =( i guess we were really connected like how i was with humongo. these past few days..i could tell were his last days... but the day i finally breakdown from school... he died. sighh... R.I.P skyler. tell Humongous, Fru, and Rex I said hi. "

dude, i need to get another fish. haha After skyler, I had Teeny (female beta) but she passed away back in October 08. so sad. i love fishies :) they're fun & pretty. i gotta make a note of that; head to concord for ALL ABOUT FISH store. haven't been there in awhile.

feb 13, 2007:
"well the whole insecurity stage passed. swear its always gonna be off and on. i just gotta learn how to control it. either way, i have to remember... that if i didn't take the risks in life that i have already, i wouldn't be where i am at right now. n plus... what's a life without takin risks? well it would be boring as hell filled with too many regrets. that doesn't sound very intriguing to me. so i'm happy with where i'm at.

where are you? sigh.

valentines day is tomorrow. no surprise, its my favorite holiday :] even tho my past celebrations, if i even had any; weren't so happy... i just like the feeling, knowing that love is in the air :] yupp"

two years ago. damn talk about cycles. haha kay. this was fun. i'll make sure i spend more time reading more and give myself flashbacks.